--Henry David Thoreau
Unforeseeable circumstances destroyed my motivation and interests last month. There were even times I thought of permanently disconnecting from the internet. I would wake up, go to work, come home, and then go to sleep. There was just too much happening for me to process at one time. And on the occasions when I was not being a recluse, I was the pillar of strength for Oppa.
It felt like I lost a part of myself. Just when I would regain that missing piece something else would happen and it would disappear again. Everything is slowly beginning to stabilize. My mother is doing well, Oppa had an interview Wednesday, and only time will heal the wound of a losing a dear friend. I truly hope August will be a better month for everyone.
I felt this quote compliments exactly how I feel. I was existing, but there was no life. I went through the motions of the day like a robot. Smile during the appropriate situations, but mostly just observing. I did not like how that felt. I lost my direction and drive in life. I did not feel princessly last month nor did I care if I did.
This month I will accept the things in life I cannot change and plan to reconnect with the dreams, goals, interests, and lifestyle I love once again. Thank you to everyone whom gave their well wishes. I truly appreciated them.
image from: Stange Times