Sunday, March 24, 2013

Belated Birthday

It is that time of year again. March 3rd marked my 28th birthday. I was not planning on doing much this year, but I was determined to have a nice cake to cheer me up. So Oppa and I set out in search of Lotte, which I had been to 3 or 4 times since first moving to Maryland. I unfortunately did not know the exact location, so we spent 2 hours driving all over Maryland. After the 3rd store, we finally found the right one and Oppa bought me the cutest vanilla cake. I especially loved the rose bouquet.

While there, I thought it would be a good idea to try making parfaits for dessert later that week. I had given up on trying to find a local shop that makes parfaits. I can find the ingredients, decorations, and cups at any of my local stores so I decided that I will make my own. These are not the best looking parfaits, but they were delicious. And besides I have to start somewhere.

This year I received a few very nice gifts. Some of my particular favorites were a blue deco phone case, a blue heart keychain with my name, and a plushie blueberry milk phone charm. I also recieved a bow bracelet from Tama and an elastic band bow ring from Oppa's little sister.

But definitely the best presents were from Oppa. He gifted me with married couple magnet phone charms. They connect at the head, so it looks like the bride is kissing the groom's cheek.

Another of his gifts is actually a Christmas/Birthday combination present. A heart tennis bracelet.

I am very thankful for all of the well wishes and gifts I have received. My birthday was definitely a great boost to my self esteem. Whenever I was feeling down or inadequate this month I would just give a quick glance at my e-mails, lovely gifts, and cards. Thank you everyone!

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

March Challenge

"Give thanks for what you are now, and keep fighting for what you want to be tomorrow."
--Fernanda Miramontes-Landeros

I have an unhealthy habit of focusing on the past or on what others have/can do. This causes me to lose sight of my  own abilities or opportunities in my life. Then when I do regain focus, I do not see the bright side. It seems that everyone around me is getting want they want, except for me. I feel that all I do is work, but I get no reward in return. Of course the recent events in my life do not help.

I would become so focused on my perceived inadequacies that I would have mini panic attacks. All I could think about is that I will never get the chance to travel, have nice things, or experience fun. Just when everything seems to be going well, life finds a way to destroy my hopes again. I know there are other people in worse situations than I am. But I feel that my life is not improving either.

I need to stop thinking this way. I need to stop focusing on other people and concentrate on my life. So this month I decided it was time to take charge of my anxiety, self doubt, and jealousy. I need to be thankful for what I have/where I am and strive toward improving upon that. I need to redirect these negative feelings and modify them into positive motivation.  I will not be taking a destination vacation this summer, but I do not need to confine myself to the house either. March will be a stepping stone on revising how I see my life and working on how to make each day better.

image from: The Berkeley Blog